Yes, I am feeling frustrated and annoyed at myself for being a stick in the mud. I am my own worse enemy. I can undo all the good I have planned very easily, and I find myself doing this constantly. Why? Maybe I'm one of those people who can't imagine succeeding. Maybe I can't stand to do anything if I can't do it very well. That's how I feel about losing weight, running, and pretty much most everything else. I know it's just the end-of-winter blahs, and that I will wake up one day and feel better.
But for now, I am stewing about many things, so I decided to try out a few things this week to take away that feeling of going 'round in circles. One thing is to create a positive running journal, complete with words of motivation, pictures that inspire me, and looking at the things that I feel good about when I run. Pushing myself but not placing so much on my shoulders that I feel bad when I don't manage that day to make my goal. I cannot compare myself to others, and I have to keep reminding myself of that. We all are on a different path, and I will get there at my own speed.
Another thing I'm going to work on this week is writing down what I want to accomplish this Spring. Just stuff around the house that needs done, what I want to do with my garden, and money goals for things I want--like that Garmin and a new Mac. The new Macs are the bomb and I am oh so envious of Bud for having one. I am determined to earn that Garmin by June and the new computer soon after. Can't wait to play with all the new bells and whistles on it. And to pay cash for them--what a thrill that will be.
Eating healthy has always been a problem for me. I was a child that didn't eat veggies--mostly cause we never had fresh, only canned. To this day, I will not eat canned veggies. Yuck. So, I am creating a lunch menu for work. I have worked out 3-4 different salads to make that I can take to work for lunch. My favorite so far is a variation on a Barefoot Contessa Cape Cod Salad. I make my own dressing--which I prefer to store bought, and knowing my lunch is waiting keeps me from eating other stuff. Adding a bit of cheese, beans, or chicken will keep me full, but not feeling gross until I get home. Cutting down on my coffee consumption is also on the list. This is really hard for me, but I know I always feel less icky when I don't drink coffee. I enjoy drinking tea, and I've been doing more of that lately, but have to bump it up. I also don't drink coffee if I know I'm going to run, because it messes with my guts.
These are small changes, but necessary for me to take steps to get myself out of a rut. I am making plans for a fun trip late this Fall, and want to be at my best for it. I'll be sharing my recipes and progress for the next few months. Cross your fingers that I can make some healthy changes and turn my brain into a happy smiley
orb of brilliance.
