Well. I continue to take a much needed break from the blog world. I am still reading blogs, but every time I think of writing a post, I realize I don't have anything to say. So...
I am doing okay. I am working on meditating (Deepak Chopra's 21 day Meditation Challenge), trying to get back into my weekly routine, and contemplating the upcoming year. I find I'm tired a lot, and since the holidays are rapidly (!) approaching, hoping I get it all done before they hit.
Still grieving, still having moments of laughing when I think about Patti, and moments where it's too painful and I cry. Hard to believe my sister is gone. Still thinking I'll get a phone call to have Chinese together; plan food for the family Christmas, and still thinking she's not far away. Someone asked about my family (someone who didn't know me) and Bud said "There are 7 brothers and sisters" and it shook me to hear that out loud. I'm used to saying "there are 8 of us." In my mind, there will always be 8 of us. I am moving through my grief one day at a time; thinking about my beliefs--cobbled together as they are--this loss has confirmed for me deep down that I really do hold those beliefs to be true for me. And that has given me a lot of comfort.
Thinking of the coming year, I am contemplating running a half marathon again in May. I miss being able to run, and my recent pathetic attempt at the Turkey Trot a few weeks ago shows I have a long way to go to be ready for May. But it's a worthy goal, and the health benefits far outweigh the temporary pain of gasping for air, side cramps, and tired feet.
I will be back, folks. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving and I will be posting when I can, when I have something brilliant to say.
